Absence Of Time

As I shut my eyes as you spoke silently to me
I won’t be able to find the traces again which will lead
Only to the beginning of this and will mark me down
With confusion, only with questions not answered at all
You are there with your voice and your words
Speaking of a comfort known to be vast and true
And everything around me turns to the dark, vague space
Trying to pull my own words from the side as I stand here
I’m just tired, let me sleep, let me close my eyes and just
Let me go and linger here in your arms, I won’t try to find the edge at all
I’ll just stay here, the voices will slowly fade and won’t find me

And in this absence of time I find the calm
Release me, release me oh release these inner burdens
Of the every growing fear inside of my longings
To be captured amongst the forlorn days,
Rest is nowhere to be found but here in your forgiving silence
Can you still find me when I crawl away in these endless shores
Only to return to this state of mind when I can look into their eyes again

As your shelter strengthen me to find the reasons again to speak
Words will be laid down for me as I find the lines to give
And my silence will only be offered for the voice I never had
In this complete maze where the walls will change when they ask
And the solid ground underneath my insecure feet will melt
I’ve walked here for days and for months just to see a sunset
Now rising up from the horizon I thought it was lost forever
My heart aches for the releasing word of this,
I’m just tired, let me sleep, let me close my eyes and just
Let me go and linger here in your arms, I won’t be able to see but I’ll be
Safer in the sound of your heart and lungs breathing in my suffer

And in this absence of time I find the calm
Release me, release me oh release these inner burdens
Which found a way to crawl into my weak heart
To be captured amongst the forlorn days,
Rest is nowhere to be found but here in your forgiving silence
Can you still find me when I crawl away in your endless shore
Only to return to this state of mind when I can look into their eyes again

This quiet storm waved for hours again,
Fading away the walls I created to protect me from the falling sky
Leaving behind their marks on my liquid skin
Which can only be released by a kiss
And I as I lay here I crawl away in these endless shores of you,
In these dark thoughts carving in my mind with their fears,
I hold on to the thought of nothing as I am here
In this absence of time with you

And in this absence of time I find the calm,
Release me, release me oh release me from these burdens
As I crawl away underneath your time

© Stella Lumina (Ellen Edens)