Last Rays Of Reality
My voice was scattering over the words,
Completing lines I once had
You heard them,
You felt them
But crossed them over like it was another story
I had left this behind like a thousand razor sharp words
And fought for space between reality and you,
I had dreamt you were drowning in her desire,
And would fly away on her stars
So will there be light,
And somehow a reason
Yes there was always a way to believe
You were not an angel but the one I saw
Can not believe, oh I just can’t
How my words are completing you again
Can’t you just leave, come out of your shelter
And leave with the northern sun
I have found my angel
Years passed your heart by and still
There was no moment you forgot
No, you held them back in your endless desire
Leaving me float on empty clouds
Did you fill me up with a light,
Hidden and lost forgotten
To never see the rays of reality
My heart was scattered over yours,
Breaking up the lines I once had
You heard it,
You felt it
But crossed over it like it was another world
Do I have to blame you for my unsecurity
For the world you left faded, as I never could see again,
Blinded by the words you spoke as I tried to find mine,
You crossed light and gave me so much
As now left behind in bleeding words
I feed the love I have now
Staring in the eyes of my burning past
Can’t you just close your eyes,
Have I not said enough to keep you away,
Can’t you just leave, come out of that shelter I gave
And leave with my northern sun
I just found my angel
So when I turned the dark into a night,
The day into a world and gave him my light
You came back burning in my thoughts
Leading my heart to nowhere again
Taking me back from where I belong
Haven’t I told you I could fly without your wings,
So don’t even try to fill me again
With your taking innocent eyes
I killed her sky before and I will leave it broken
Didn’t you smile with all your fear
Just to keep me close to you,
Oh please can’t you just close your eyes,
Close your heart
I won’t need that filling endless thing falling apart
Years passed your heart by and still
You couldn’t send me one word
No, you held them back in your voice
To kill the lines I created
And I can not believe I am creating words again
Just to ease your mind for the blaming of love
Don’t cover me up, don’t hold me captive
Can’t you just leave with my northern sun
I have found my angel
© Stella Lumina (Ellen Edens)