Through The Forbidden Curtain
Give me the reasons to lie here close to you
Blended in with everything that is here between you and me
I’m not stating there is more to find in the corners you held
But nothing seems to stand in my way as I touch your holding fingers
Can you give me more than you already do
There is this light, blinding from the source
But I know it’s already gone when I see it
There is this warmth, telling me I’ll be safe
But I know it’s already cold when it touches me
So far away is your closeness calling me closer
Don’t make me run blind towards what has been said and given
I can only bleed more and leave my wounds open
Close my eyes to avoid reality crawling once again through my veins
Mark my beginning, mark my end
I think I won’t be there where you’d expect me
I can only think more and leave the world open for everything,
Anything I’ve wanted to settle down and raise this light
And I don’t think I’m going to fall this time
Lay me in confusion, all bruised without a clue
Lay me down in your warmth when I’m cold as my heart
The forlorn words which are waiting in vain
For the appearance of just a small ray of light
Coming through my window – the morning just fled back to your eyes
Time, can you hear me, I think you stopped again for a while
Fading my thoughts to dust as I linger towards the senses
Filled with longing, aching to drown silently in my dreams
And I don’t think I’m going to fall this time
Give me the reasons to talk with words I’ve never heard
But my voice has left me once again when the words are settled
And from out of where I was there’s no pain in silence
So through this forbidden curtain I saw from where I was hiding
No words, no lines are describing the ability to see through this all
There is this time, ticking away from me
But I know it’ll stop when you touch it
There is this silence, marking my presence
But I know it’s louder when you’ll speak of it
A moment flashes through your mind and for a second it’s all
So silent running through your fearless eyes as you seek for me
But only a sound dares to speak out loud and falls back
I can’t hear it from where I’m listening, please let me be endless for a while
Your words leave their mark for so long I won’t be
Trying to stay under the touch so untouched by only me
I can only give more and stay inside my silence to wait
For everything to fall down on me so gentle
And I don’t think I’m going to fall this time
Lay me in confusion, all bruised without a clue
Lay me down in your warmth when I’m cold as my heart
The forlorn words which are waiting in vain
For the appearance of just a small ray of light
And I don’t think I’m going to fall this time
And I don’t think I’m going to fall this time,
Left behind in the struggle to linger or wait inside of you
Surely I won’t fall this time since I already have fallen
Through this forbidden curtain of secret silence
© Stella Lumina (Ellen Edens)